Hey people...This week was great...it was a mixture of happiness,sadness,fustration,madness and confusion.The start of the week was with a movie"THE UNINVITED".Went to watch it with heen and wani at Iluma.Thought that the moive was gonna be scary and spooky like "THE COMING SOON"but was not up to my standard.CEH2..Anyway one of my distance aunt had passed away,this is the third death in these month.
I was superduper angry with my mum..first thing she comes home late coz of overtime and secondly she told me that she had to work on sunday..OMG!wth man!its sunday and you wanna work..i was freaking mad with her.sometimes people tink to much about their work and have no time to think about themselves or their family.I have to suffer by doing all the housework..Oh God! On friday,we had teambuilding for the april intake..they had fun games for them to enjoy but the weather was freaking hot and i got darker...hate that!
At times im so confused coz i want it so badly but when it comes to me i feel so guilty like im betraying someone.Sometimes when i see people with it,it feels as though i want that too..but when i see the problem that lies on it,makes me feel better just being with myself.Just me and no one..not even family.Nobody would understand its feeling..maybe im cursed with no ****.Im sorry to the person..for the lie.I couldn't help it...i might have missed the words that you told me but i seriously can't help you by saying nice things which would make you happy coz you are jus a friend not more than that.Sorry friend i have a life to go ahead with.I'm clear with what i want in life i dont wanna hurt myself anymore...the feeling of it has made my heart numb.Maybe i dream too much of the whereabouts of my "SH".
